Too much unknown

I saw a counselor at school last week.  And I have an appointment with her again tomorrow.

I'm not sure how I feel about this.  I'm trying to be open minded - but at the same time I'm having a hard time seeing how this is going to help.  Not because counseling isn't helpful as a concept...but just because I can't picture it in my life.

Kind of like I can't picture having orgasmic (or even good-feeling) sex.

I'm in my last week of summer school for one of my classes with a long assignment hanging over my head. I only have one more week of the other class

I have a couple gigs lined up this week and next - and then....well, I guess just work on myself and studying.

I'm scared. 

I hate this unknown shit.  I don't know how I'm going to solve these feelings, I don't know how I'm going to solve this exam, I don't even know where I'm going to be living in a year.

I'm so burnt out.  Yoga was helping but its too expensive to keep up. 

Plus I feel guilty for feeling so sad and unhappy.  I mean most of my life is awesome.

So why is it so hard...