Frozen.
Paralyzed.
That's how I feel these days.
My to-do list is so intense, so overwhelming, that it has honestly stopped me in my tracks. I'm exhausted and I don't know what to do.
I worked my butt off this week, and yet I still haven't prepped for my orals, nor have I done enough background research for my final papers, nor have I memorized my song for my finals. Back when I was a voice major I had to do like 9 songs a semester, but now I can't even get one done with all my other stuff on my plate.
I'm going to be perfectly honesty...I don't know how to do this self-care stuff. I feel lazy and unproductive when I try but clearly the constantly working and stress is not productive either.
I wish I had someone who could just say "nope...this is all you are expected and should do." But the whole self-employed thing...I just keep taking on work and keep taking on work. Not the best idea when I'm a student.
I also wonder what it would be like if I had a normal sex life. If I could experience tension and release. But instead...I just experience tension....lots and lots of tension...
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